dragoblade

dragoblade @ 2008-05-07T11:54:00

2008-05-07T18:54:20Z

Leave a comment and I will
a) tell you why I friended you,
b) associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.,
c) tell you something I like about you,
d) tell you a memory I have of you,
e) ask something I've always wanted to know about you,
f) tell you my favorite user pic of yours,
g) in return, you must post this in your LJ.
(I think only 3 peeps can do this)

dragoblade @ 2008-04-22T00:47:00

2008-04-22T07:49:59Z

Just finished a five day night shoot, rather tired now. Cant wait to see the final product, it should be amazing. Oh, and my birthday is tomarrow, uneventful 20

dragoblade @ 2008-04-22T00:29:00

2008-04-22T07:46:29Z

Tagged by fickle_creature
List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.

Conventional Wisdom - Built to Spill
Brightly Wound - Eisley
Crushcrushcrush - Paramore
Misery Business - Paramore
Run to the Hills - Iron Maiden
Music is my hot hot sex - CSS
Sweet Child of Mine - Guns 'N' Roses

Oh, and I tag... NO ONE! Everyone in my friends list has already been tagged

Ravey Goodness

2008-04-05T22:26:12Z

In the mood for techno trance or house, any suggestions?

dragoblade @ 2008-03-30T20:24:00

2008-03-31T04:40:41Z

I have come to realize that I dont know what makes me happy by myself, which in turn makes me a rather uninteresting person. I love to meet people who have those little things about them, they go somewhere to sit and think, enjoy treating themselves to a lunch by themselves, play music to make themselves happy. Something that they can share with others and say, I love to come out here/do this when I want to be alone/escape/be peaceful/enjoy life (this is just what comes to mind) and I thought you would like it too. I have none of these things, atleast none that I can think of. Im too safe, perhaps thats not the right word but its the first that comes to mind. I just feed off of the joys of others, I NEED someone else to have fun anymore. This spans to video games too, something I used to have a blast with. I would sit alone in my room or in the entertainment room and just play for hours. Which was FUN. I have only recently started to go to the movies by myself due to lack of friends down here. I have never sat and listened to music (even though i love it) like many of you have, im either driving or doing something else as well. I guess I just feel that I should be doing something else with my time. On another note, i am a very physical person, you can ask anyone who knows me at all. Im a hugger, even to a complete stranger. I miss having someone to hug/kiss/hold/cuddle/snog/sleep with(yes, just sleeping). I dont mean to refer to myself as a child, but in this case it applies, when a newborn isnt held or at the very least caressed it can and will die. It may not be but it feels like a lack of meaningful physical contact is affecting my depression for the worse. Now I know others have gone way longer without a relationship than me, but if I here another asshole say he hasnt gotten laid in over three months I am going to punch him out. Try more than a year without even a short term girlfriend. (I realize I need to learn to like myself and enjoy the world without the need of another person but its hard!) I also feel that unlike what seems like the rest of the world thinks (or atleast the whole of LA) im a guy who believes a kiss should have meaning. This is probably a really sissy thing for a guy to say but I say fuck off. I cry during chick flicks(if theyre good) war movies, musicals, etc what of it? Scenes from movies like The Lord of the Rings, Spiderman, or the end of Click (I BAWLED at the end of click). I realize no woman really wants anything to do with that because when they say they want a sensitive guy they really mean a manly man that they can find the hidden sensitive in. I will probably end up single until someone wants to settle down and have a family. When they have already done everything that would be considered fun or young or whatever and their other rapper/punk/unsuccessful boyfriends dont seem to be good long term answers. I will be the safe answer. All because I might be sensitive to emotions or respect women. Or thats what I keep telling myself, I could just be immature or lack street smarts, or something.
One of the topics for my next post will be memory, or my lack thereof.

Again this is just a silly post, feel no obligation to read through these.

(I am gonna start posting things that I have learned about myself, this is the only one I remember right now: Im not uncomfortable around gay people.)

(lots of teary ferrets recently)
(On a happier note im writing more than I have before)
(I should really figure out how to hide the body of this post so that you dont have to scroll forever to get to the good posts, lol)

dragoblade @ 2008-03-30T20:23:00

2008-03-31T03:23:34Z

Pay no attention to my silly posts, it just helps to type it out

dragoblade @ 2008-03-29T19:44:00

2008-03-30T02:46:57Z

This just in, I still like pie. That will have to be my happier post.

dragoblade @ 2008-03-29T19:41:00

2008-03-30T02:41:18Z

Just went clubbing for the first time. I have never had a more awesome or more depressing time as far as I can remember. I would get dancing, have a BLAST, then I would aproach a girl and be completely ignored for awhile, then I would dance some more, etc. Oh well, tomarrow has got to be a better day.

... a happier post will come eventually, I promise

dragoblade @ 2008-03-25T17:56:00

2008-03-26T00:57:00Z

On a happier note, Im going to wicked tonight! *excited*

Identity

2008-03-19T06:53:51Z

Have you ever felt that you have no idea who you are anymore? Of course you have, I am not so different that I would have purely unique feelings. There are more than 6.5 billion people on this little rock in this purely amazing galaxy, let alone universe. I have never felt the most pain, the most joy, the most fear. Others have taken those honors, one thing that keeps me "cheerful" through the times is this fact: Someone, somewhere, sometime, has felt more pain, been more exhausted, more angered, than I will ever be. Recently I have moved to hollywood to pursue a career in film as a makeup artist, a genuinely enjoyable albeit stress filled profession for me. This event could scarcely have come at a worse time for I have also reached that point in life when a person loses themselves to the ether, a state of identity limbo where they come to question the very essence of their being. Am I a nice guy? Is this the image I wish to portray? My views of sex, relationships, pride, nobility, sin, deceit, right, not so right, wrong, all gone. Pressures of the job, success, failure, and all in a hostile environment in which I am incapable in my current state to replace or at the very least emulate my friends of old. Am I the one that stands strong? No, I just drown myself in work or electronic distraction to forget what I can only describe as being alone in a sea of people. My former self confidence has been almost destroyed, only to arise when I am being challenged with the company of another more shy than myself. I look at the works of others, writings, paintings, creations. In my wildest dreams (which have recently all but ceased, to my great dismay) I could not be as clever, or in the state of constant invention or imagination of those that I so highly respect. Things that were once easily within my grasp such as the ability to speak intelligently or a semi effective memory are so quickly being lost to the void. To add to this culmination of depression, I have that previous fact to look to. Somewhere, sometime, someone has died by torture, endured more loss than I can ever imagine, and I am letting these trivial feelings get me down, the thought of which just furthers my depression. The insanity of it! I am being depressed by the thought that I am being depressed! Who am I?

Back, for a limited time

2007-11-12T01:29:11Z

Thats right, its the new release of Erik blog! Get it while its hot. The last release was a wopping 57 WEEKS ago! What is the subject you ask? Its the Erik Recipe! Let me know what you think of the accuracy! Weee!

Erik - a teaspoon of romance - a heaping teaspoon of caring - a scoop of playfulness Mix together and serve hot.
'What is your personality recipe?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Hey Everybody!

2006-10-03T01:17:33Z

Or, more like the 2 friends I have so far on here. I now have a LJ account. I was requested to get one (didnt actually get the email, weird) But yeah, im done now